I'm a fake geek and I love coffee

"Many times people think you are crazy....
But in that craziness....we see genious......"

Now whenever you want to use that quote, remember... there is always one perfect way of telling things........
Drop your head while you are uttering the first sentence......if you do......all the girls around will look at you....and will love your weekness...
Take a pause then......take a gasp.....now show that you are in control.......and now speak out the second sentence.......


I have always found these two sentences way too much powerful than any other, to end a presentation or speech....To show your passion.......to show that you are different......

Whenever I had to leave one place, I have always sensed a defining moment. While I pack up things, I notice that, I am so mobile...All the things I have ever earned, purchased, hold dear and couldnt live without ....can fit in a medium sized bag and a small kit. And again, while I am walking, carrying that bag-full-of-my-things, I realize, its me and me only, that really matters.....my dreams and my passion..........Those are the words I used to hear from my uncles while I was a child, but couldnt understand what did it really mean or thought I would spend so much time thinking about those words and their meaning ..........now walking across the street, in that solitude, the moment you feel that you might just get enlightend, I have a feeling.......being like this, without any bonds, any commitments is not a very bad idea......may be being able to walk like this is a gift.......may be being able to miss the last bus to home and never care about it, is a blessing.

And it was in one of those moments, that I figured out, how much my coffee machine means to me. I am a crazy coffee lover. I drink a min of 8-10 cups of coffee a day. Way too much than anyone I know.

And if i get to spend the night in the office, the number might touch 15. Coffee means too much to me. So does coffee machine. And probably becuase of that very fact, I had decided to bring in a big coffee machine, the very day I rented a two room apartment for my company office. And I have found it always fascinating, to drink coffee alone, late in the night or early in the morning. I would love to go to the balcony and feel the fresh wind while drinking hot brewing coffee. Experience the feeling that the whole world sleeps while I am awake.

After writing this much, I gave this page to one of my best friends to have a look. Just to see, whether I sounded like a wise-ass....or can I make it the best seller of the year....And she said...."its good" ....Just good ?....no comments....no criticism........no suggestions.....?comeon......I was really trying to write something that noone can really understand...........and she says.."its good"....can be translated to ...."it sucks"....

Well never mind..........women have always been mysterious to me, though I would really love to crack the code and be the one who has that "gift" of really knowing what women want.....Sometimes I even get to believe that I have finally deciphered the code and have fully understood the psychology of women, what they want and how they want.....Just to find out the next day that they allowed me to decipher that code the way they really wanted it to be deciphered.....

There is a story about a knight in King Arthurs' round table, who is the only one in history who happened to have the power, of knowing what women really want ,from a wizard. And in his words it is so simple. "just let her decide what she wants" .........starnge enough...but that is what she wants.

As simple as it might sound, how many among male breed are able to follow that simple rule. I have been into relationships and I can say with confidece that its near impossible. She herself makes it difficult for us. She tries on a new cloth and asks me "how does it look?" Ideally, following the only rule I have, I should say "what do you think ?" Then she might say " i think it should be darker".....or "hmmmm.......it is good but it might not match with my blue jeans" ......

That was the ideal outcome....noone is hurt.....no fight.......exactly what that woman wanted. But would I do that.........almost never........I would say........."it looks great on you"......comeon you stupid....basic rule....'The Woman' wouldnt try her favourite, the first time......................and when the next time she tries, the one, she really liked, when she really wants to hear that "you look extremely beautiful in that dress" .... I would go like " I think the last one was better" .......dear god.......she anyway is going to take what she wants.........why dont I let her do that.........

Back to my coffeemachine. (women have a very strange way of getting you out of the track)

During the day, I would like to have coffee with my friends and collegues. I dont really want to drink alone. Since many of my friends dont understand the real intention behind the repeated question, " would you like to have a cup of coffee" , I am really having a hard time getting them to drink coffee. I want to talk and share ideas and ask my favourite (though boring) question. What would you really want to do in this life. That is a question, I know for sure, that noone has an answer for. Including me. And yet I find it so important to have an answer for. May be noone can really find answer for that question. May be searching for an answer is the real answer. May be redefining yourself every moment is what you just need to do, to be happy.

But as much as everyone finds that question, boring, how can one possibly live in this world without knowing the reason behind his/her existance. How can anyone survive, at least even thinking or trying to find an answer to it. You may or may not belive in destiny, or Karma. But isnt that a basic question ? What the hell are we doing everyday if we dont know what we are built to do.